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I thought I'd better do a quick entry about the books read in March.I still want to to carry on this reading challenge for the year. Although I feel I need to start reading things that are a bit more highbrow. I still have more ebooks than I strictly know what to do with. My TBR pile is off the chain at the moment. I doubt I will ever get through it.

Trilby - George du Maurier
The Highwayman - Emily Vainglory
Almost like being in love - Steve Kluger
The Nobleman and the Spy - Bonnie Dee and Summer Devon
Undeniable Magnetism - Bonnie Dee
Test of Faith - Aleksandr Voinov and Raev Gray
The Prince who never smiled - Pepper Espinoza
Jungle Heat - Bonnie Dee

In other news, I got the projectionist position. We started the training today. There's a lot to take in, but so far (fingers crossed) no major mishaps. I even managed to lace up the projector twice although that a complex job. So much to remember and we have to do it in three weeks. On average it's meant to take 6 months , so we're really up against it. I have to get some new uniform as well so that's something I have to do.
I also have to buy a Mother's Day card and present. I already got a cake so I hope she likes it, I think Kwesi is going to take her out for lunch somewhere but as usual I'm working.
As for 'Songbirds' that's sitting at 90k. Ideally I want it to be done by 100k max but there's so much I haven't tackled properly yet! I am starting to get a bit worried. It can't be too long because it won't be publishable and it will be a huge mess to edit, but I need to finish the actual story! What am I going to do?

I'm kind of anxious, now that I know when they're going to be interviewing for the projectionist position. Next Tuesday, which doesn't give that long to prepare.
I still don't really know whether this is what I want to be honest. I can foresee a whole bunch of trouble arising from this, seeing as if I get the position I will be working with Neil extensively and let's just say there's been a certain amount of semi-flirtatious banter going on over the years.
Do I really want to be in a position where he's going to be my line manager? Seeing as I distinctly remember at least one occasion where he tried to get off with me and I kind of knocked him back. This is something that frankly is bothering me a bit.
The only thing is I really do need the extra money and I need a change. But can I handle it, that's the question?
I think the first thing I'm going to do if I get it is actually pay for a new laptop as this one is winding me up. The USB ports are really irritating and interfere when I'm working.I'd also like a more modern desktop with a decent screen, and decent wireless internet access. I miss that so freaking much, you have no idea.

I have been semi working on a subs letter for Songbirds. When this is done and frankly I hope it's soon I want to get it critted properly.
I'm actually considering paying someone to do it professionally, but of course it's going to have to be the very best it can be. No loose ends or dodgy formatting! I literally will be so happy to finally finish this freaking draft, you have no idea. I also want to finish my fics and rejig 'Troubadour' as it's a bit of a mess. I wish I didn't have to rush to try and finish it.
I also need to check the Scrivener site to find out if the Windows release is ready yet. I want to use my Nano discount, seeing as I earned it.

No fic recs at the moment. I feel like I haven't read any for ages.I just haven't got the time to cacth up but I will soon, I promise. I don't have any holiday from work until late May because of Easter and the whole Royal Wedding hooha.
Somehow I've got to fit in five weeks because they've decided to do it that way instead of giving us lieu days. In which case I think they should reinstate double time on bank holidays. There is absolute no incentive to do them now expect for the fact you get rota'd for the buggers and you just have to suck it up.

One of my workmates is getting married so I might make an appearance at the reception. It's been a long time since I went to a social event. I was asking about the wedding list, but he couldn't even remember what site it was on. I really have no idea what to get seeing as I'm more familiar with him, since I work with him. Kind of tricky, but I feel obligated to do something since I'm going to the reception. It's in Quainton, which is going to be interesting to get to.

Edit: I don't know if I mentioned the Armie Hammer comm, but there is one.

armie_hammer

Now we just need some action up in here, rather than just on Tumblr. I also found this in the Wall Street Journal Magazine A Lighter Shade of Pale - Armie Hammer models in WSJ magazine

I feel very down and out of sorts today. I think it's because I have been really tired and fed up after working all weekend yet again. I feel I live there at the moment. Frankly it's a bit depressing considering that I spend most of my time at work slaving my guts out and yet I still can't afford to do anything.
My life feel like a constant round on the treadmill. Work. Sleep. Work. Sleep. Naturally nothing is getting done. I desperately need a holiday but I'm pretty sure that I won't be able to get one 'til after April if I get one at all. This is very depressing.
I have ideas for 'Songbirds' but I don't know whether I can sort this out. This draft is taking way too long to sort out. I know I have to be patient but it's hard to know if I'm just wasting my time. Most of the time I work alone and it doesn't bother me that much but I don't have a great deal of self-confidence at the moment.

This popped up on my f list. I would imagine there is several weeks worth of reading on this one. To be honest it's probably the kick up the arse that I need fic-wise. I really do need to finish 'The Poignard' and then it can take pride of place there as well. Not to mention 'In too Deep' and 'Shades of Loyalty' as well.

Master List of Gen Kill AUs

in case anyone's interested.
I was kind of getting to the stage when I was considering just leaving it because I've written myself into a corner and I don't really know how to write myself out of it. The end is written; there's a whole bunch of plot that happens after the massacre and the king's death. But I just cannot for the love of God get past this plot hole. More like a plot swamp at this point.
I cannot find anyone who wants to beta and to be honest I know it's a big ask. It's long. Very long. I actually wish I hadn't written it long. But try as I might I really cannot write short and it's something that I'm going to have to work on.
I mean 'Songbirds was only meant to be a short slight tale and it's close to 80k or will be by the end of the week.

I think I need something to cheer me up a bit as I can tell I'm doing the moping thing, and that's not good. How about this?

Double Exposure featuring Armie Hammer and Jessica Stroup
getting hot and heavy for a photoshoot. And before you ask: No I am not remotely green with envy. Why do you ask?

Since I have no money, I think I'm going to spend the next two days writing 'Songbirds' I only hope I can get some head way on it. I just want to finish this draft now!

Progress is very slow on 'Songbirds' although I have managed to get to 70k. I just need to get my inspiration back. I have to thank emerald_skies for her really helpful thoughts on the characters. It really helped, so thank you again. I think the thing I have to crack is Rob. You know when you fell as if you don't really know a character and what makes them tick. That's kind of how I feel. I know he's meant to be
I know what he looks like: a ’50s blond haired version of Armie Hammer. He’s a baritone and both divas both want him. He’s down to earth, charming, a bit of a player. He’s in love with the heroine, only she doesn’t realise it for ages because of her self-esteem issues. I just have to keep chipping away at it. Usually it just comes to me and I don't think about it, so when it doesn't it's quite worrying.

So far I haven't been posting very regularly which is a shame. I need to get on that, to be honest. I don't think I've really got the hang of blogging. I hope I crack it soon, as it would be embarrassing if I ever made as a writer and couldn't do it.

I'm having a birthday meal at Wetherspoon's. I invited a bunch of people from work, but I doubt they'll turn up to be honest. Bugger it, I'm doing it for me, not for them. If any of them turn up then that's a bonus. I hate birthdays as they just remind me of how isolated and lonely my life has really got. I might try and watch a film afterwards as well. Nothing has come out which I'm desperate to watch, although if 'Never let me go' or 'True Grit' come out by then I might make an effort to watch something.

Work have decided to show four showings of 'Carmen' in 3d instead of the rest of the season.So now they want us to promote that instead. As usual I was the last person to know about nay of this. The reason I was given was that the slate was so packed they couldn't show the Wagner as it was too difficult for the audience and not popular. I'm side eyeing this comment so hard at the moment because this isn't what the audience is telling me. I really don't know any ore . Do I really have the energy to devote to this any more? I really want to at least finish 'Songbirds' this year and at least one of the fics. That's what my energy should be going on.

I have restarted my monthly reading so I have read a couple of gay romances, and the new Nancy Friday. I didn't even know she had a new one out so there you go. I remember reading them as a innocent teen and let's just say they had a rather shaping effect of my younger self. I must have spent the entire book a bit like: O.O but unable to stop turning the page. damn my curiosity! I recently re read 'Forbidden Flowers' last year and that was strange after so many years how much I remembered.