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* Today's been kinda stressful to be honest. I work up a bit late but I could have handled it just fine. Then I attempted to ring a taxi, only to find the phone wasn't ringing out. Nightmare. I had to go to the corner shop to get money for a taxi. Meanwhile my father just looks at me running round like a blue arsed fly. Eventually he comes out with 'Oh, do you want to phone for a taxi?'. He really does make it so damned obvious that he cannot be arsed doing anything for me at all. Anyone else in the family he would actually offer a lift. I'm lucky if I get grunted at. Frankly it pisses me off. The way I see it, if you wanted to do things for someone you would. The fact that you never bother tells me everything I need to know. You should heard him the day of my birthday when he realized that he hadn't bothered. In fact none of them had actually bothered but that's by the by. I should have expected this when I went out of my way to buy present for Christmas and got nothing. He started burbling about 'Oh, I'll get you something later' but I knew nothing would materialise.
Can this entire family make it any more obvious that I am an afterthought, lowest on the totem-pole? I wish I didn't care. I wish I could have a family that's close. Maybe it's just as well I work as much as I do, and write in my spare time. If I didn't it would probably bother me a lot more. Writing fills a gap in my life in the same way fandom does I think. I just wish it wasn't so lonely sometimes. I don't really have many fandom friends as such.

* We did the training which was a bit of a waste of time. I bought some books from the Tuesday market including 'The Great Gatsby' because it's about time I read some classic literature and seeing as they're making the film soon I wanted to know the story. It was OK, I suppose. I really don't think that it needs to be in 3D for a start and I have some reservation about the proposed casting. I can see Carey doing a good job of Daisy Buchanan even though I have to say I didn't much like the characters with the exception of Gatsby himself and even then...
I also bought a book on Stalingrad which should be interesting as I loved the film and some erotica. I kind of gave some of the erotica books the side-eye especially one called 'Sense and Sensuality'. I will report back on just how dodgy it is even though I will probably read the entire thing. Yes, when it comes to historical smut I have little to no shame.

* I'm going to try and read some Dorothy Dunnett this month and Jilly Cooper. Perhaps I should try for the whole Rutshire series from Riders which is a huge doorstop of a novel to Jump. I know I have read these book numerous times and they are a bit trashy '80s bonkbuster but I enjoy them. I love the characters and Jilly just makes it so enjoyable and easy. I don't always like her heroines for some reason. But I just love those book so much. I am definitely an unashamed fangirl and I don't think there's anyone else with the exception of Gabaldon that I enjoy so much. Of course there's the whole anti-fanfic thing which did make me think less of Gabaldon, and I was bemused by some of her choices especially in the latest book, but ever since I read Outlander I admit I have been addicted. Apparently they're making a film of the book. I can't imagine if they'll be any good because they are huge doorstops of novels and they're bound to leave something out. I dunno how they're going to tackle the whole Black Jack Randall thing either but I will have to check the train wreck.

Looking back at this post I do seem a bit low. I think if I were getting on with the novel I would feel less grumpy and mopey about life. Perhaps a bit of 'Social Network' on DVD might do the trick.